It’s all downhill from here

January 28, 2008 at 7:27 am (asthma, blog, Blogroll, experiencing nashville, health, historic nashville, journal, monday, nashville, photo, questioning, rant, struggle, support, weight, weight loss, work, workout)

I’m starting to feel like a person again.  These meds do weird things to me, mentally, physically, and emotionally.  I’ll be glad when I can stop taking them all together.

I don’t have much to write about, I just wanted to make a post for the sake of consistency.  My weekend was uneventful.  I did get to spend some time with Melinda and Alexander on Saturday, so it was nice to see them.  I hadn’t seen them since before the holidays.  I watched a handful of movies over the weekend, which I may do some reviews on.  I wasn’t impressed with any of them.  There seems to be a lull in good movies these days.  Anyone know of any decent ones?  Thank goodness the redbox is only $1 a day

This week I’ve really got to push myself to get in all of my hours at work.  My bank account is just now feeling the effects of me being out sick around the holidays, then off for two weeks when the office was closed.  I have to be uber-careful about my spending until I can get back on my feet.

I have two Dr appointments this week.  I’m glad about that, just to be able to have peace of mind.  This whole asthma attack thing really shook me.  I’m going to see a pulinologist, as well as my regular Dr, so maybe we can get some sort of management going.

One thing I do know, I’m not going to sit here and let this limit my life as much as it has been.  This is for the birds.  I’ve got to really take a hard look at my health, as whole, and determine how to start tackling the things that keep me in this state.

In other news, I’ll be doing another “Experiencing Nashville” review soon.  I’d still love to hear any suggestions from the peanut gallery out there.  I have some things in mind, but it’s been way too cold to get out and take photos lately.

That’s all I’ve got for now.  I need to head into work and get lesson plans done for the week.  It’s Monday, yet again.

Until  next time…


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time for change

January 19, 2008 at 5:45 pm (asthma, blog, Blogroll, christian, god, gym, health, journal, life questions, nashville, normal, potential, questioning, struggle, support, video blog, vlog, weight, weight loss, workout, ymca)

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“guess I’ll die another day”

January 17, 2008 at 9:00 pm (ambulance, asthma, emergency room, health, journal, nashville, potential, rant, struggle, suffering, weight, weight loss, workout, ymca)



Ok, so the title is meant to be a small example of my, somewhat morbid, humor. I had sort of a close call today. This morning, I woke up as usual, but within minutes, I was having a serious asthma attack. Usually an attack warrants only a dose of albuterol on my trusty nebulizer, but this was different. Without any warning, I suddenly could move no air at all through my bronchial tubes. I tried to start a breathing treatment to no avail. After a few minutes, I stumbled across the room to my door. Thankfully my roomate was still getting ready in the bathroom, just about to leave for work. I mouthed to her that I could not breathe, and she immediately called 911.

You know how they always say that your life flashes before your eyes? It’s sort of true. In a strange, almost out-of-body, experience, I was remembering my life, and whether or not I made it count. I also saw the faces of all the people I care about…the ones I would be sad to leave if it really came to that. For several horrible minutes, I had contemplated the real possibility that the next, very short breath, may be my last. Let me tell you, that is quite a sobering fact.

I’ve had asthma all my life. I was diagnosed with it when I was just a baby. In my 27 years on earth, I have had several close calls, all equally terrifying, yet eye-opening.

By the time the paramedics got there, I felt like I may be on the verge of losing consciousness. I was shaky, thanks to the adrenaline that rushes through the human body in these types of cases, but it also seemed to help move just enough of the necessary oxygen.

After what seemed like hours, but in reality was only a few minutes, I had regained enough of the ability to be able to walk on my own, and make my way to the ambulance waiting outside my front door. Once in the ambulance, the drama was over. It’s amazing what that medicine in the IV can do. I immediately felt the effects, and my chest released its grip, allowing me to breath freely again. I would definitely prefer the ambulance ride any day, if for no other reason than to feel some relief more quickly than having to bear a ride to the hospital.

So, that was the adventure of my morning. Another perk of the ambulance ride, is that they immediately take you in and get you in an ER room. I was hooked up to more wires and tubes, given a 2 hour long, intensive breathing treatment, and was feeling good as new. Actually, I kept joking with the doctors that this was the best I have really felt in a while. Maybe I should’ve come in sooner to get the magic juice pumped into my veins.

The docs were suggesting that I stay overnight, but I convinced them otherwise. I know, I know. But this isn’t the first time I’ve had to go through this process. I would much rather be in my own bed, taking breathing treatments of the same medicine that I would be taking at Vanderbilt.

I’m on a hefty dose of some steroids for the next week or so (and I don’t even mind the mood swings, brain fog, fatigue, and puffiness that comes along with it). I think I can handle that.

I’m realizing more and more just how much progress that needs to be done, in all facets of life. Life has a lot of potential. I just have to figure out how to get there.One step at a time…

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best laid plans

January 16, 2008 at 12:15 am (acheivement, blog, gym, health, journal, nashville, weight, weight loss, workout, ymca)

Unfortunately, I never made it to the gym like I said I would.  It’s not my fault really.  Since I have been having breathing trouble, and having to wake up enough to take breathing treatments throughout the night, I took a nap today before work.  I usually hate naps.  Not just dislike them…hate them.  Unless I am completely in for the night, and have no need for being productive for the rest of the day.  Naps leave me more groggy than before I went to sleep.  In the mornings, it takes me a good hour to wake up and feel alert enough to face the world.  And that is with coffee.

So, what actually woke me up from my nap was my breathing… or lack thereof.  I was having an asthma attack.  That doesn’t really happen very often.  I usually catch it before it’s really bad and take a treatment to head it off.  I don’t know what brought it on, but it was scary.  If you have never experienced an asthma attack, or something similar, then it is really hard to understand.  Even after starting a breathing treatment, it is literally a waiting game until the meds actually start to make the bronchial tubes unseize themselves enough for air to move freely.  What an awful, horrible feeling.

That is when I decided against the gym for today.  I turned on the tv and did some mild arm lift, and some marching in place to get my blood pumping a little bit.  URG It’s going to be a long road.

… and yet again, my YMCA dues are accomplishing nothing more than keeping the floors nice and shiny.

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My goal of the day

January 15, 2008 at 7:49 am (gym, nashville, weight, weight loss, workout, ymca) (, , , , , )

I’m feeling a little better and am able to go a little longer without breathing treatments.  This evening, after work, I am going to the gym.  I will probably only be able to walk slowly, but it is a start.  I want to get into the habit of going, regardless of how much I really feel I can do.  I know I get easily frustrated when I can’t jump in and go at full force, but that is not realistic.

So, basically I’m writing this to convince myself it’s a good idea.  I will pack a bag of workout clothes and take it with me to work.  Before I leave tonight, I will change and head out.

So there, I’m committed and nothing will let me change my mind.  Right??

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