the constant cycle

October 7, 2007 at 1:19 am (blog, Blogroll, journal)

I’m noticing a pattern.  Life seems to run on this constant cycle.  Look around you, It’s everywhere.  There is the cycle of the days and nights.  The cycle of the moon and sun.  The cycle of the seasons.  All of this proves that things change.  Just when I am getting comfortable, it seems like the rug is pulled out from under me.  I have to regain the strength to get up and learn to stand all over again.  It’s an exhausting cycle.

I guess it’s bittersweet.  On one hand, this only proves that the hardships are temporary.  “This too shall pass” comes to mind as I try to find comfort in the reality that lies before me.  On the other hand, it is impossible to know just what lies around the corner.  Tomorrow may bring an even more difficult struggle that I am destined to face.

I feel pretty raw right now.  In trying to make sense of everything, I am learning that there really is no making sense of anything.  It can really drive you crazy if you let it.  I am trying to remember the things I’ve learned along the way… the things that cushion the fall just a little bit.  I am struggling to hold on to the hope that seems so distant.  But, at least it is there.

I  really don’t know what tomorrow holds.  None of us do.  All we can do is take hold of what we have today, and make the best of it.


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